Honesty

Sitting here doing a lot of soul searching, and wondering really if I was a mind reader, what would I find? Strangely enough I'm not mad, I feel numb. Just like something died inside. Just came to the realization that one aspect will never change. It's time I come to terms with it, and accept my fate. I feel lost right now. I don't know which direction to go. Maybe in some sick way I enjoy this feeling, maybe I bask in it. Wishing I could just go to bed and not wake up. When trust is broken, what is left? While love still remains, a huge fissure has appeared in the foundation. Must keep busy, because what I really want to do is so extremely selfish, I can't put my children through that. THEY keep me going..... nothing else.

I've Been One Emo Chick

So yes after looking through my blog, I deleted some posts. I sounded far too emo than I really am. So Mini-me & S.S. are now taking Taekwondo. Which means I hide from my children even more than normal, they are now fully equipped in ways to kill me. Yes I sleep with one eye open too.

Teddy & Yoshie's procreation Pudgerz is turning into devil dog. I don't know if it's the dog teen thing or what, but Pudge tries to kick Teddy's butt all the time. The cuteness factor is wearing off.

Kaligurl & Guitarzan got hitched while down in Texas. I said well now you got a license to do whatever lol.

I haven't written much lately. Nothing interesting to put my two cents in about.